Mindfulness & DNA
I have been living with horrible insomnia now for about three months… some nights are manageable with four hours of uninterrupted sleep which makes the following day livable, like today. I woke up and as always prayed, yes I pray. I don’t really think about it as GOD thing, or in relation to a church … Read more
I woke up this morning and told myself that on Friday, there would be NO more nursing. No More Boobies… No more snuggle in the morning. I yearn for my freedom, but right now as I sit here thinking about this, I get terribly sad. This is it, I can’t go back on my word, … Read more
I have raging hormones now, and have had them for a couple of months. I never thought that I would be the one who would breastfeed, let alone, be the one who would breastfeed for more than six months… here I am at nineteen months and I’m forcing myself to wean my son… I don’t … Read more
Yesterday at the sandbox, I was struck with the lack of manners that are instilled with people these days. I know that we are all busy, I know that we all think that we are important, I know that our sons and daughters are just learning… BUT really MOMMY do you have to be so … Read more
A job that pays me green dollar bills, not in love… I only thought about it for a moment, then I announced it to my husband, who then laughed at me. My insides churned. There are so many days that pass and I wonder if life would be easier if I had a place to … Read more
Committed: Feeling dedication and loyalty to a cause, activity, or job; wholeheartedly dedicated. After months of being on the brink of depression and taking a long walk to somewhere called, make-believe, to never come home again; I finally learned something about myself. I spent the afternoon with my dog and remembered what it was like … Read more
I am not sure what I want to write about, as there is much that floats between my ears, and thoughts today! Being a mom has left me with little time, which I cannot stand to complain about but it is the one thing that I can never find. I never have enough time. AND … Read more
What is the ideal mom? I think I may take a poll as to what that question means to parents, especially mothers. Today as I scrambled after my son at the park I was struck with this question. What is the ideal mom? I watched and listened to other mothers, and other caretakers; how were … Read more
Well, here I am, a mom. Yes, indeed eighteen months later and it is truly starting to settle in, and I’m beginning to feel resentment. I can’t stand this horrible feeling. I am the type of person that can’t afford to be in any kind of resentment, let alone let it fester for days! I … Read more
Why was mother’s day created? Today was mother’s day and although I would have liked to be very excited about it, it was a sucky day. Yes, I said sucky. Maybe I’m unclear what this day is suppose to be like, maybe my expectations are set too high? But there was no card, no chocolate … Read more